Im Dreaming Of A White Kitchen

Every time I clean my kitchen I dream of what my kitchen one day will be! White and amazing! I want white cabinets and butcher block counter tops, Bronze oiled appliances and espresso hard wood floors! I want bead board ceilings and white crown molding! My colors are White, Tiffany Blue and Espresso! So I have gone and picture overloaded you I hope you enjoy all these wonderful kitchens and stay tuned for more to come!

(Cabinets)

I love how they show all their yellow dishes! Id like to do something similar with Tiffany blue!

These sinks are amazing!!

Amazing Chandelier!!!

I was browsing the always fabulous potterybarn.com and came across this amazing chandelier, just thought I'd share it with you all!

http://www.potterybarn.com/products/wakefield-chandelier/?pkey=call-chandeliers-pendants

You can clip just about anything to this chandelier! Quotes, pictures of the babies, recipes, scriptures!

And what a perfect way to display all your Christmas cards!

Mama's Got A Brand New Tatt!

While home recently I decided that it was time to finish the tatt on my foot! My Brother in Law Klint @ Highlander Tattoos in Show Low always takes good care of me!

What used to be just Gavin's thumb print with a halo is now a work of art!
We added Gages thumb print and made them into birds! Gavin's wings spread and Gage's tucked behind him!
My boys are so precious to me and I love looking at my baby birds all day!

My Funny Lil Man

Well there is no doubt that my Gager is a funny lil guy! What a sense of humor he has! He constantly has us laughing! Tonight Gage was walking around everywhere dragging my jacket around so Josh put it on him! Gage loved every minute of it! He was just too cute, I just had to bust out my camera! Here's a few silly pics of my Gage!

I live for this smile! It really doesn't get much better than this!

AWWW the simple pleasures in life!

3 Years Ago Today!

3 Years Ago Today I saw this lil face for the very first time!

And from that moment on my life was changed

I loved more than I'd ever loved before

I saw the world in a total different light

I was a mommy for the very first time

He was mine, sent from God

To take care of and love while he was here on earth

But on this day

August 18,2006

The farthest thing from my mind was how long he would actually be here on earth with me.

I never thought that I'd out live him

The only thing I can remember was that I was so excited to finally see his lil face (he was beautiful) and starting our lives together.

Our new lives at that!

Things would no longer be the way they were. I'd make sure of that.

I would love him like no one else ever could

I would teach him everything I could

It was no longer about me

Cuddly, Soft, Happy, & Silly...Very Silly.

Gavin & I had such a special bond.

Yes he was my first born

But he was also my very best friend.

He pulled me through every single day.

Smart amazing lil man of mine.

A short 21 months later he left for heaven

And again my world would never be the same.

This lil boy has changed my life a million times over in his short life.

And there's no one I miss more than him.

He brought so much sunshine into everyone's life

And still does to this day.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GAVIN!!

I still learn something new from you every single day.

I miss you and love you more day to day.

Your mommy I'll always be.

And I thank God for that!

I LOVE YOU!!

Christmas 2006

Gavin Turns 1

Baby Shrek

Halloween 2007

Gavin & Myriah 2008

My Lil Son & I

Spring 2008

Josh & Gavin

Gavin & Ella 2008

(Thanks to Brian Thomas for sharing the below poem with me today)

You're in a better place, I've heard a thousand times

And at least a thousand times I've rejoiced for you

But the reason why I'm broken,

the reason why I cry is how long must I wait to be with you...

I close my eyes and I see your face

If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place

Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow

I've never been more homesick than now

Help me Lord cause I don't understand your ways

The reason why I wonder if I'll ever know

But, even if you showed me, the hurt would be the same

Cause I'm still here so far away from home